My goal was to be ready to launch my blog in January, January rolled around and I said as long as it’s by the end of January I will be happy! Well guess what it is February 6th and I’m just now launching it. That may not seem like a big deal to you but honestly once February 1st hit I was ready to throw in the towel. I was so disappointed in myself for not meeting my goal (Because I had plenty of time to complete it!) Now the reason I didn’t hit my goal was not necessarily my fault, it was and it wasn’t, but basically I was waiting for my pay check to be able to afford the website payment to launch. It wasn’t my fault that I had to wait to have money in my account but at the same time I had had plenty of time to budget at the beginning of the year to have it there for me by the end. Anyways back to my point, my point is once February 1st hit I was so defeated. It didn’t matter how many hours and resources I had put into making this blog happen before that date because I was ready to give up. In fact up to even yesterday I was still ready to throw in the towel, even though I had the money now didn’t mean this is going to be a success. I had so many negative thoughts going on about how others are doing this and they are doing it better. And no one wants to hear from you and what do you have to say that they haven’t already heard. Literally the list goes on and on guys of me putting myself down all because I was disappointed in one thing. Today I woke up and decided to have a different mindset.
Notice I said I decided to have a different mindset. I didn’t wake up feeling any less defeated this morning, but after listening to a few encouraging messages and some fun exercises in trying to get my finances in order I just said lets try this again!
It is so important to have GRACE with yourselves! I know we are so much harder on ourselves than anyone else in our lives. It is so easy to start to pick apart every flaw every missed deadline and hold it against ourselves. We can’t do that Yall! We just can’t, the enemy loves to tell us lies through other people but mostly through our own mind. We cannot let him have that foothold in our lives and just simply lay down and let him win.
We need to fight back. We need to fight back those lies of I’m not worth it with the truth that God thought we were worth sending his son to die for, so heck yea I’m worth it. We need to fight back the lies of being a disappointment with the truth of yes I may have been disappointed in this one thing, but that does not define who I am. The truth is I am a child of God nothing else. Disappointment is not a word to describe who I am.
We lastly need to remember in our weakness we are closer to God when we allow him to take back control over our lives. I literally cried out to him “God I can’t do this!” I mean I screamed this through my tears yesterday to God. And today after spending some time with him he has covered me in so much peace to know I can’t do it, but I know that he can. Whatever that looks like in your life. Whatever seems impossible for you, you are probably right. It might be impossible for you but NOTHING is impossible for Him.
“Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” - 2 Corinthians 12:8-9